Surviving Cancer does not make you a hero, it only leaves you wounded for life

Before you jump to conclusions, I would like to add that I am only talking from personal experience here and in no way do I intend to hurt any sentiments.
 
I was diagnosed with non-gestational choriocarcinoma (ovarian cancer) at the tender age of eleven (yes, even before I started menstruating). Two major surgeries and five rounds of chemotherapy later, I was declared cancer free and thankfully, I continue to be so. And let me tell you I am NOT proud of it. In fact, there was nothing heroic about me ‘battling’ cancer as people like to call it. I was blessed to have a supportive family who could afford the expensive medication. I was blessed to have a school that allowed me the flexibility of studying from home for the duration of the treatment. I was blessed to have the best doctors at Tata memorial Hospital (Mumbai, India) and yes, I was lucky that it was diagnosed early. To be honest, I behaved like any other school kid – throwing tantrums and refusing medication, if not cursing my parents for feeding me ‘wheat grass’, threptin biscuits and all that crap.

 Trust me, cancer sucks.
 
That is exactly why I don’t understand how people take their health so lightly. I don’t get how they keep their phones close to their chest as if their life depended on it, how they greedily gobble away junk in the name of food, how they gladly accept carcinogens on/inside their bodies, how they look away at the mere mention of the ‘C’ word as if they were immune to it.
 
Let me tell you something no doctor would ever let you in on. The treatment is worse than the disease itself. There is nothing more toxic than the medicines they pump you with, the effects of which sometimes never go away.
 
Imagine having an illness very few doctors know about (this type affects less than 2% of women). Imagine being cured but still never quite okay. Imagine not knowing a single person who is in the same boat as you. Not that I am complaining. I am extremely grateful to the doctors who gave me a new life but all I would like to say to people who believe in ‘enjoying’ everything, is, well, enjoy it while it lasts.
PS: If you managed to read the entire post, do share with other childhood cancer survivors you may know. I would love to get in touch with them.
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About Apurva

Unabashed introvert, closet extrovert with artistic female obsession, hormonal male obsession, a penchant for wit and humour, crazy belly dancer, emotional fool, yet sober and boisterous kid lover, is running away with treasures and secrets from the darkest corners of her mind. Kindly catch her if you can and send her to love's eternal prison

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